Jude Smith

Seven days, one and a half pounds to go. I will blog more fully when I have hit the goal.... or before if it gets silly!

A number of 'senior' Bishops (one retired and a couple of others) it seems have written to the Daily Telegraph to suggest that Christians in the UK are persecuted. There will be some who nod furiously and agree whilst others have already said: I'm doing fine thanks!' This issue comes up again and again. And its early on a Sunday- and I haven't had caffeine- but this is what I think I might think. I'm not sure persecution is the right word, but I do think Christians are treated differently. And if I am honest I think the very system that has spawned Bishops is partly to blame. That system evokes the notion that somehow Britain is a Christian nation: and so the cultural expression of our faith is all muddled in. Thats not the case yet with other faiths- and so the outward culturo- religious signs of faith in Sikhism and Islam etc are more understood. In Christianity's case- if that is your cultural background and you have junked it- then why assume othe

Its a beautiful sunny Friday morning. I have to work in about an hour but thats OK. I'm shattered. I think I have gotten really tired, just through not having lie ins and rest. And so I took my foot of the relentless pedal that I had imposed in my life. I think I had gotten hugely focused on getting to my goal weight, and so when the new scales wouldn't play I got really disheartened. I wasn't sure what else I could do, and old conditions were flaring up. Exercise would have been silly and good mineral rich food was needed. So what I have done is relax! I hope I have given my body a bit of time and grace for rest. I've lightened up the training and have stopped stressing.. And the weight has dropped again (I think it always was but I had lost sight of it). I have 1lb to a landmark weight and 5lbs to my goal. Its still possible by Easter but I am trying to not focus on that.

For the last few weeks the bathroom scales have been being a bit dicey. One moment has been seven pounds heavier than the next. So, rightly, a new set of scales were bought. And they tell some nasty and uncomfortable truth. I may not have lost two and a half stone yet. I might have done by the morning: but today I haven't. I am gutted. I know its a bit pathetic- but its made me wonder if I can do this. I have been training and keeping most of the good eating.. but its all slowed. Its hard to even articulate what this has done to my head. BUT on the good front I haven't eaten chocolate to get over it.. nor have I starved myself. Tomorrow I go back to my trainer and we work more on getting some weight off. I still have Easter as my target.. maybe more humbly than previously..