There are a load of references in novels and the like to how disappointment is worse than anger; how it makes people feel worse about what they have done and all that.
Right now I'm inclined to agree. I just snuck home for a weekend. And as people have asked me how things are I'm aware of how disappointed I feel. Disappointed is a difficult one to deal with. I'm not sure its dissipated with forgiveness in the same way that anger is. Its not a very active emotion.. it just sits on you.
It doesn't inspire, or instill hope. It just drains. And I don't like being drained.
blah blah blah...
This too will pass.